I hate being 18.

I feel nauseous because college is not enjoyable.
I feel nauseous because university applications are stressful.
I feel nauseous because my portfolio is far from ready.
I feel nauseous because I have yet to write my personal statement.
I feel nauseous because I only want to go to a particular uni.
I feel nauseous because there’s a lot of pressure for me to get into a prestigious uni.
I feel nauseous because every conversation is about me going to university.
I feel nauseous because I have so much work to do.
I feel nauseous because the computer is slowly dying.
I feel nauseous because the printer ran out of black ink.
I feel nauseous because I’m going to be really poor this year.
I feel nauseous because I don’t have money for materials.
I feel nauseous because I can’t get a job.

I feel nauseous because this is the last magazine batch I can enjoy…

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I feel nauseous because though I can’t afford it, I still want to own all these magazines every month…

I feel nauseous because the girugamesh concert is tomorrow.
I feel nauseous because I must pretend that I’m not nauseous that day.
I feel nauseous because there is no chance of getting any work done that day.
I feel nauseous because the next day I have to travel to a uni open day outside London.
I feel nauseous because that’s another day I can’t get work done.
I feel nauseous because I’m going to be exhausted on Wednesday.
I feel nauseous because I have to go back to college on Thursday.
I feel nauseous because it’s going to be like this for some time.

Posted: January 28th 2008 10 months ago at 4:04 pm

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Jen January 28, 2008 5:28 pm Reply to this comment

*gasp* tomorrow!

This one really hit home:
{I feel nauseous because every conversation is about me going to university.}

Life would at least seem easier, just a bit, if the people around us didn’t exacerbate the most stressful decisions/situations for us.

steph January 28, 2008 10:20 pm Reply to this comment

yay for concert tomorrow :love: don’t worry about it cuz you only have be the amazing fangirl that you are and everything will take care of itself :wink:

but ohmygosh, everything in this post is a reflection of what my life is like nowadays too.. :sad: i just hate the feeling of not being able to do much about it, but i’ll keep going on because this is not that’s all there is for me :yes: and hachi you also have so much ahead of you, so as long as you do things with 100% with your heart, there is nothing to regret later :love:

best of luck at the concert tomorrow!! :love: :love:

Chiaka January 28, 2008 10:40 pm Reply to this comment

aw so much stress :angry:
You know what though? Even though the Girugamesh concert is only for a day, for a few hours you need to enjoy it! It seems like you’re been pulled apart in so many directions with uni applications and semester left of college and the other loads of things you have to do on top of that.
As corny as it sounds the girugamesh concert sounds like a “message” to me. lol. It means you’re going, and you are going to really enjoy yourself because you deserve it. Then worry about the other stuff later.
A long HOT bath will also relax your mind… *sigh* ~

Riku January 29, 2008 2:53 am Reply to this comment

~hugs

Try not to think about anything! Empty your brain and read a good book or take a long bath! ~agrees with Chiaka

Rebecca January 29, 2008 8:04 pm Reply to this comment

err wow. i hope you get through this okay? don’t worry so much. whatever’s meant to happen, will happen! :D

Ellen January 29, 2008 10:08 pm Reply to this comment

Oh my gosh! D’:
I don`t know what to say except.. Hope it gets better, faster? > <

Karen January 31, 2008 1:46 am Reply to this comment

Oh, wow, so much stress :angry: *hugs* I really wish that you’ll feel better soon. Life is pretty scary when we actually think about it. Don’t worry, it’s okay to have some low moments once in a while. Just keep an open mind for the future :)

mishisan January 31, 2008 2:49 pm Reply to this comment

Sounds like you’re under a ton of pressure @_@
It may seem overwhelming but soon most of it will be done and you’ll be going to a uni :love:

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Elle February 2, 2008 8:39 am Reply to this comment

Hi~! I was just passin through and thought I’d give my two cents ^^; hope you don’t mind…

I wish I was 18 again but then I don’t because even tho its been a few short years, I learned so much about myself in that time frame. Of course life gets tougher as you get older these days. I can understand your worries, but I can tell you as time goes on you get wiser and you will be able to handle yourself a lot better than you think. Patience is a virtue, just hang in there, and have a little faith in yourself. ^^ you’ll see. ♥

Courtney February 2, 2008 6:32 pm Reply to this comment

Take a deep breath and take it one day at a time. Plan what you have to do that day and then just try to get it done. Don’t overwork yourself and try not to stress about long-term things. Just take the small steps you need to get there everyday.

Courtney February 2, 2008 9:25 pm Reply to this comment

Sorry to double-post but thanks for your comment! I’m really curious what you think I might look like. =3 LOL @ Asian on the inside!! Yes, I am a bit above average, but not too much, because I have a 5 year old Japanese girl living inside me. XO XD